A little quote:

In my son's eyes I am a hero I am strong and wise and I know no fear But the truth is plain to see he was sent to rescue me I see who I wanna be In my son's eyes.

Well, that was a long break......seriously, where does time go.  I sort of forgot about the blog.....now I need to figure this stuff out.  I viewed a friends and I am totally jealous.  I want to add cool stuff to this.....that requires me to read and figure it out.  In time.....right now, I have a computer about to die on me and Brady waking up. 
I just had a thought in my head and thought I would write about it.....it's really not much. 
I was wondering how most women feel after they have breastfed and suddenly aren't producing enough.  I feel like I have done something wrong.  I now have no milk left and I feel horrible.  I really wanted to do this longer!!  I am so depressed right now....I have cried about it.  I just feel like I am missing out on the bonding experience....I feel empty.  Is this normal?  I just love my little boy so much and don't want him to go without....and I guess I am a little selfish, because I don't want to go without either.  I don't want to do anything wrong.  I feel like I have, somehow!  I feel guilty. 
I came to the realization just a few minutes ago, that last night was my last feeding with him.....I don't want it to be, but I have no choice!  I guess this is just another step in motherhood, but I really am depressed about this.  I know that I more then likely won't have another baby and that makes me so sad right now but I loved breastfeeding.....I felt such a bond with him.....skin to skin, his little fingers and hands touching my hand, me massaging his arm while we fed.....This SUCKS!!!  I know I can hold him and massage him, etc. anytime, but this was different.  It was so calming and personal.  It's unlike anything I have ever experienced.  I miss it so much and it's only been a day!  Wish me luck at getting over this hurdle. 

Finally, a family blog

Welcome to our family website! Well, my website that will mostly be about Brady....and random thoughts from yours truly! Bet you can't wait for these! I finally decided to create one after realizing it's pretty darn simple....all but the name you are going to create for your blogspot! I didn't ponder on this too long, don't worry! I could have made it a lot more complicated, but thought, "Brady is so cute" would be just fine, and after all, it's easy to remember! Because, as many of you know, he is SO CUTE!!

It's really hard to believe Brady will be 5 months old on the 14th!! Where does the time go? Some days just fly by, I wish they would wait for me to catch up! I don't want to miss a thing and I am so afraid I am when he goes off to the sitter! I really miss him! I have to look at his pictures on my phone just to help me make it through the day without him!

So, FB, or Facebook, is my favorite website EVER!! OMG....LOL....LMAO.....BFF.....STFU....okay, maybe no one else uses that last one but me (Shut the F up). This Facebook phenomenon.....it's so addicting! Many of you can attest to this! I love seeing how people are doing and what they have been up to! I love searching for people you have not seen in MANY years and finding them! I love how you can write a few words and have a million responses....even on the simplest of things. It's great! I love being able to laugh, and smile, cry and feel concerned for people, all in a matter of 5 minutes, on just one little website that some genius's invented!! I love how it reminds me of people's birthdays, because I CAN'T EVER remember them, nor do I have a calendar I write them down on! You would think after years of being on my own and not having to rely on my mother, that I would write this down......somewhere, anywhere, and KEEP IT! I can't even remember one of my best friends birthday!!! I know approximately when it is, but not the number! Seriously, this is a bit ridiculous, don't you think! (I know Angie, you are laughing right now!); What do I want for Christmas??? An address book already filled out with addresses and numbers and birthdays! Small enough where it can fit in my purse (or diaper bag nowadays). If you give it to me and it's not filled out, you seriously just wasted your money! :)

I will be updating this as frequently as I can or as quick as I get a thought in my head and feel it's important enough to write down! I really want to start compiling a list of all funny things babies (kids) say and do that is HILARIOUS and then one day write a book about these and publish it! Wouldn't that be great!

I look forward to watching my son grow and learning from him! He is such an awesome part of my day! I can't wait to share my pride and joy with everyone! He is the most special little boy!

Enjoy!